Wanderings of my Mind

Another waste of time...

2006-02-03T19:18:00.000-05:00

I know, I've done these before, but its been a while, and things change, so....

Basics
* Your gender: Male
* Straight/Gay/Bi: Straight
* Single?: nope :-D
* If not, do you want to be?: nope
* Birthdate: I was born once.... or twice, when you think about it (if you don't get it, read a Bible)
* Your age: 19
* Age you act: it depends... anywhere from 2 to 100
* Age you wish you were: 22 (why is my business)
* Your height: 6'1"
* Eye color: brown
* Happy with it?: I suppose so... red eyes could be fun
* Hair color: Brown
* Happy with it?: sure
* Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Righty
* Your living arrangement: dorm room with the typical dorm room stuff
* Your family: Mom, dad, and brother.
* Have any pets?: I have a turtle here and 2 dogs back home (one is the brother's)
* What's your job?: I work at a zoo teaching little kids
* Piercings?: Not yet
* Tattoos?: Nope
* Obsessions?: reading is fun
* Addictions?: Not any more
* Do you speak another language?: some Spanish
* Have a favorite quote?: Read The Last Battle by C.S. Lewis, and pay attention to what Emith the Calormene says
* Do you have a webpage?: Kinda, I guess

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it

* Do you live in the moment?: sorta
* Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: generally
* Do you have any secrets?: of course
* Do you hate yourself?: that's getting better
* Do you like your handwriting?: sure
* Do you have any bad habits?: yes
* What is the compliment you get from most people?: I don't know
* If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: The rise of the Joel
* What's your biggest fear?: Something bad happening to my mom, dad, brother, or girlfriend
* Can you sing?: define "sing"
* Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: no
* Are you a loner?: at times, usually when I want to relax
* What are your #1 priorities in life?: doing what God wants
* If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: sure
* Are you a daredevil?: at times
* Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: that's none of your business
* Are you passive or agressive?: usually passive, unless I'm really annoyed
* Do you have a journal?: not really
* What is your greatest strength and weakness?: weakness: I can be a bit shy strength: loyalty
* If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: I want the Force
* Do you think you are emotionally strong?: hmm.... more on that later perhaps
* Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: yes.....
* Do you think life has been good so far?: heck yes
* What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: what God wants done will always get done, no matter what you try to do about it, or how often you screw up
* What do you like the most about your body?: my spleen
* And least?: I honestly don't care much
* Do you think you are good looking?: good enough
* Are you confident?: I think I'm getting better
* What is the fictional character you are most like?: Tirian (read The LAst Battle)... I can be rash at times, and that causes problems, but I try to do what is right
* Are you perceived wrongly?: I don't know

Do You...

* Smoke?: Smoke usually makes me sick
* Do drugs?: no
* Read the newspaper?: yes
* Pray?: yes (not as much as I should, though)
* Go to church?: yes
* Talk to strangers who IM you?: sometimes
* Sleep with stuffed animals?: nope
* Take walks in the rain?: At times
* Talk to people even though you hate them?: sometimes, but not when I can avoid it... I try not to hate people anymore
* Drive?: yes
* Like to drive fast?: No comment

Would or Have You Ever?

* Liked your voice?: wtf???
* Hurt yourself?: yes
* Been out of the country?: yep (and hopefully will again someday)
* Eaten something that made other people sick?: yes (freaking hilarious)
* Done drugs?: no
* Gone skinny dipping?: not yet
* Had a medical emergency?: yes (not fun)
* Had surgery?: yes (also not fun)
* Ran away from home?: yes (but only for a little while)
* Played strip poker?: nope
* Gotten beaten up?: no
* Beaten someone up?: no
* Been picked on?: yes
* Been on stage?: yep
* Slept outdoors?: tons of fun
* Thought about suicide?: that's in the past
* Pulled an all nighter?: yep (i start to act really wierd when I do)
* If yes, what is your record?: I don't know
* Gone one day without food?: Yes
* Talked on the phone all night?: not yet
* Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: I have never slept with the opposite sex, and won't until I'm married
* Slept all day?: when I'm sick
* Killed someone?: no humans (yet)
* Made out with a stranger?: no!
* Thought you're going crazy?: I'm not crazy already? oh...
* Kissed the same sex?: no comment
* Been betrayed?: yeah
* Had a dream that came true?: sometimes it happens
* Broken the law?: define "break"
* Met a famous person?: once...
* Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: give it time...
* On purpose?: yes (dirty chipmunks!!)
* Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: not that I remember
* Stolen anything?: yes
* Been on radio/tv?: in the backround
* Been in a mosh-pit?: haha... yeah
* Had a nervous breakdown?: not yet.... think about it sometimes, though
* Bungee jumped?: not yet
* Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes

Beliefs

* Belive in life on other planets?: depends how you define life
* Miracles?: YES
* Astrology?: pile o' bull S....
* Magic?: not the way post people think of it
* God?: very yes
* Satan?: unfortunately, yes
* Santa?: no
* Ghosts?: in a sense
* Luck?: not really
* Love at first sight?: not really
* Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: no
* Witches?: yep
* Easter bunny?: Chocolate easter bunnies are tasty
* Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: very yes
* Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: I wish
* Do you wish on stars?: never works

Deep Theological Questions

* Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: yes
* Do you think God has a gender?: sort of
* Do you believe in organized religion?: in a sense
* Where do you think we go when we die?: Heaven or Hell

Friends

* Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yes
* Who are your best friends?: Kris, Tim, and James rank up there pretty high, but I have a lot of really really good friends
* Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Kristen or the guys in Guy's Group
* What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: I've gotten a lot
* Your favorite inside joke?: that one about some blond in a bar
* Thing you're picked on most about?: ........
* Who's your longest known friend?: Nick
* Talking to? nobody at the moment
* Newest?: I don't know
* Shyest?: Hmm.... not sure
* Funniest?: I'm not sure... lots of friends are pretty funny
* Closest?: Kristen
* Weirdest?: hard choice... all of them are a bit wierd
* Smartest?: Hard to say... probably James
* Ditziest?: I have no idea
* Friends you miss being close to the most?: close as far as distance:Kristen
* Last person you talked to online?: James
* Who do you talk to most online?: James, probably
* Who are you on the phone with most?: Kristen (by far)
* Who do you trust most?: Kristen
* Who listens to your problems?: Kristen (I refuse to talk about them to most anybody else)
* Who do you fight most with?: I havn't faught with anyone in a while
* Who's the nicest?: All of my friends are pretty nice
* Who's the most outgoing?: Amber (by far)
* Who's the best singer?: Either Niki or Kris
* Who's on your shit-list?: that's my own business
* Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: no
* Who's your second family?: my friends here at school
* Do you always feel understood?: heck no
* Who's the loudest friend?: Amber
* Do you trust others easily?: not at all (until I really get to know them)
* Who's house were you last at?: depends on how you look at it
* Do your friends know you?: Generally, I think
* Friend that lives farthest away: I'm not 100% sure

Who Was the Last Person...

* That haunted you?: Haunted me?
* You wanted to kill?: Adam Z
* That you laughed at?: Adam E
* That laughed at you?: Kelly
* You went shopping with?: myself
* That broke your heart?: ??
* To disappoint you?: depends
* To ask you out?: no one
* To make you cry?: I'm not gonna go there
* To brighten up your day?: most of my friends can do that
* That you thought about?: Kristen
* You saw a movie with?: Kyle, Matt, Pat, and Isaac
* You talked to on the phone?: Kristen
* You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Wasn't this question asked before?
* You saw?: I don't know... I just saw a lot of people
* You lost?: Don't care to answer that...

Right This Moment...

* What are you wearing right now?: green t-shirt, blue jeans, green hoodie, white socks, and blue boxers
* Body part you're touching right now: my spleen (honestly, who thinks of these questions?)
* What are you worried about right now?: What's the worth?
* What book are you reading?: Several
* What's on your mousepad?: I don't have one
* Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: Questions like these are dumb
* Are you bored?: not really
* Are you tired?: not at the moment
* Are you talking to anyone online?: nope
* Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: nope
* Are you lonely or content?: relatively content
* Are you listening to music?: yes

Good Enough For Heaven?

2006-01-28T20:03:00.000-05:00

Ghandi was a good man. Nobody in their right mind will try to deny that as fact, even me. Before you pass me of as another babbling nutcase, read what I have to say.
God says in his word that "the wages of sin is death," and that the only way to ovecome this, and be with him in heaven is through belief in and acceptance of his son, Jesus Christ. Some like to believe that through their own works, by their own good, they can make their own way into heaven. This is based largely on the assumption that a good deed can erase a bad deed, which is complete foolishness (a foolishness found in all humans, but foolishness none-the-less). Nothing in the past can be erased. If I walk up to a man and kill him, nothing can undo the fact that he has been killed. Even if he somehow manages to come back to life (something I believe to be a possibility, but more on that some other time), he was killed by me, and that cannot be undone. The deed can be forgiven, but not erased. I have ceased to be a good person, and cannot destroy the bad I had done.
There is a gulf in between earth and heaven. Every single human being has a desire to go to a better place after they end their life on earth (if they deny this, they are either liers or insane). There are two ways to cross this gulf. One way to cross it is to leap across it on your own strenghth. Perhaps, if you step just right, and do everything perfectly, you will be able to accomplish this. The problem is that for humans, this is an impossibility. Think back to when you were little and stole a cookie out of the cookie jar (or did some other small crime). That deed is done now. Whether your mother forgave you or not (or even knows), that cookie cannot be put back into the jar. It is gone, and you are a marred human being. You made a slight misstep, and cannot repair it. When your time comes, you jump, and miss Heaven by an inch. Just like Ghandi would have done. You cannot do it on your own. Whether you miss by an inch, or by a mile, you miss.
The second possibility is to ask for help getting accross the chasm. Jesus is capable of carrying you accross that abyss to safety. All that must be done is to admit that you are incapable of doing it yourself and ask for help dealing with your imperfections. Since Jesus lived a perfect life and died for you, in your place, you are capable of turning to him, and having your imperfections overlooked by God. And I guarentee it will make life a lot more worth living too.

This is the end... for now anyway

2005-11-01T09:44:00.000-05:00

Due to an extreme lack of time and motivation, I have decided to officially stop updating this thing. I am sorry. It was a lot of fun, and I enjoyed it thoroughly. It is entirely possible that I may start typing again at some point, so keep your eyes out. Until then.....

Pretty funny

2005-10-09T15:35:00.000-04:00

I thought this was pretty hilarious:

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Schizoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Schizotypal	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Antisocial	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Borderline	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	38%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Narcissistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Dependent	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Obsessive-Compulsive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%

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Online tests can be great. Such a wonderful waste of time. It looks like I'm a pretty messed up person. Hopefull this amuses you too.

Announcement

2005-10-04T15:54:00.000-04:00

After careful consideration, I have decided on a name for the turtle. He is to be called Aardvark. I don't know whay he is to be called this, but he is.

Wasting time

2005-09-13T14:19:00.000-04:00

Laziness drives the world. Honestly think about that for even a short time, and you will realize that it is true. Why is it that people invent new things? It is because they don't want to do their job the old fashioned difficult way. That would require work, which uses up time that could otherwise be spent doing better things, like sleeping, playing games, or staring at the wall. Because of humanity's desire to be worthless, homo sapiens have advanced far beyond their father's greatest stretches of imagination, at least technologically (morally is a whole different story that I might tackle later). So, this entry is my salute to lazy people all over the world. Oh, and I'm not sorry in the least for the gap between this entry and the last one. I was being lazy.

*the above passage in no way expresses the true opinion of the person who wrote it... it was written only as a break from doing homework

2005-07-04T22:35:00.000-04:00

God bless the USA!

Animal Fun

2005-06-29T21:40:00.000-04:00

My job is driving me mad. Completely and utterly mad. Don't get me wrong, I love it a ton, but it is making me go insane. For those of you who don't know where I work, read earlier entries. Anyway, we can look for an example of what it is like by looking at this past Monday. I was in front of a group of kids showing them an alligator, when the thing decided that the time had come to releave itself. So now I am standing in front of a group of kids, holding an alligator, with gator urine all over my arm. Just as I recovered my composure from this, the alligator decided that he wasn't done, and let out another flood of pee. This all, of course completely distracted the kids, and their attention was gone for the rest of the morning. Then in the afternoon, I was showing the alligator to another group of children, and he decided to do the exact same thing. What I want to know is how a little alligator has such a huge bladder. Anyway, thats just a sample of why I am going mad. I love the job, though. Honestly, how many other people get paid for playing with animals and kids? I know of 5.

Another Survey

2005-06-05T22:15:00.000-04:00

Found this on the Blogs of a couple of friends of mine, and figgured what the heck?

1. What time is it? 10:15 pm
2. Name that appears on your birth certificate: Joel Matthew Post
3. Nickname: The Joel, Joelseph (I dunno if that one is spelled right)
4. Parents Names: Tom & Robin
5. Siblings: Benuel
5. Number of candles that will appear on your next birthday cake: 20
6. Date that you will blow them out: April 8
7. Pets: 2 dogs and 1 cat (down from 1 dog, 2 cats, 2 goats, and 1 ferret 6 months ago)
8. Eye Color: brown
9. Hair Color: brown
10. Tattoos: nope (I really don't like needles)
11. How much do you love your job? A TON!!!
12. Favorite Color: blue
13. Hometown: Erie
14. Current residence: Erie
15. Favorite food: I really don't know, I like a lot of food. We'll say.... ribs
16. Been to Africa: no
17. Been toilet papering: technically, no
18. Loved somebody so much it made you cry: yes
19. Ever been in a car accident: no major ones
20. Croutons or bacon bits: I really don't care for either
21. Sprite or 7up? sprite
22. Favorite movie: Gladiator
23. Favorite day of the week: Thursday (I get to spend the day looking forward to Friday and the weekend)
24. Favorite word or phrase or action: discombobulated
25. Favorite toothpaste: we'll say Crest
26. Favorite restaurants: Pufferbelly is pretty good
27. Favorite Song: Penny Lane by the Beatles
28. Favorite pop: Pepsi
29. Favorite sport to watch: football, if I am with a group of friends
30. Preferred type of ice cream: chocolate chip cookie dough
31. Favorite Sesame Street Character: Super Grover
32. Disney or Warner Bros: WB
33. Favorite Fast Food Restaurant: Arbys
34. When was your last hospital visit: February 2004
35. What color is your bedroom carpet: I have hardwood floors
36. How many times did you fail your driver's test: 0
37. Who is the last person you got e-mail from before this: a spam company
38. Have you ever been convicted of a crime: not yet
39. What store would you choose to max out your credit card: Borders, Barnes and Noble, Home Depot or Gander Mountain
40. What do you do most often when you are bored: read, take walks, fiddle with my computer
41. Name the person that you are friends with that lives the farthest away: well, Amy lives in Wisconsin
42. Most annoying thing people ask me: Why do you shake? (havn't been bothered by that one in a while, though)
43. Bedtime: usually between 11 & 12
44. Who will respond the quickest: who knows?
45. Who is the person that is least likely to respond: see above
46. Favorite all time TV show: M*A*S*H!!!!!!!!
47. Last person you went out to dinner with: I think my family....
48. Last movie you saw: Star Wars III, I think (a while ago)
49. Last book you read: I havn't the slightest... I read several at a time
50. Dream Car: a 4wd hybred SUV
51. Time when you finished: 10:58 pm

I really Don't Think I'll Give a Title Today

2005-06-01T22:25:00.000-04:00

First off, let me say Holy Crap! It's been a really long time since I've put anything into this thing. I'm slightly sorry about that, but not very sorry. I really don't know what to put....
I guess I'll just give an update of my summer.
First I started off by heading up to Michighan with Intervarsity to go to Chapter Focus Week. Well worth my investment. Honestly, I can't describe how God worked on me that week. Very cool.
I have now gotten very busy with my full time job at the Erie Zoo. I work in the education department, which means I work with little kids. I never was a believer in macroevolution, but I am begining to believe that many kids may just be part monkey. The job's a ton of fun, though (and it will look super on my resume :-) ). I really havn't been doing too much else... I shot skeet with some friends one day, which was fun. I dunno, I guess I don't have much of a life. At least I get the satisfaction of knowing that I just wasted some of your precious time. Bwahahahaha....

Been a while...

2005-04-25T10:56:00.000-04:00

Wow, it's been a long time since I've written anything in here. I'm sorry about that.
Something has come to my attention that I believe needs to be addressed. Many people in the world have been trying to defend evil by merely looking at its outside. Yes, chipmunks are cute, but this is exactly what they want you to think about. Inside of that cute little body is an evil rodent mind planning to destroy you. The moment you let down you guard down, they will begin to commit ramdom acts of terror. Be vigilant!

Quick Question

2005-04-07T14:04:00.000-04:00

I am considering splitting my blog into two blogs. One of these would be mostly humorous, while the other would be political in nature (it would also contain humor, but of a political nature). Before I do that, I would like to know what you think. Please tell me.

The State of the Nation (or the Nation of the State?)

2005-04-01T09:01:00.000-05:00

The Terri Schindler-Shaivo case, despite its tragedy, helps to further point out the corruption within our court system. For over thirty years now our court system, which was meant to interpret the law and protect the innocent, has been allong innocent person after innocent person die painful deaths without their permission.
The United States of America was designed as a country where the states ruled the nation. Now, our courts have gained so much power for themselves that they are capable of legislating from the bench. We have a government ruled by a supreme court, which is made up of what amounts to a group of buerocrats!
The courts of the United States are corrupt beyond measure, and anything possible needs to be done to radically reform them. If all else fails, the people were given a right to a militia in order to rid our government of just such corruption.

Individuality

2005-03-21T15:46:00.000-05:00

So many students are trapped into living in an illusion, I almost lose faith in my generation. They operate under the impression that they are individuals and are capable of thinking for themselves. Thinking that they are making a statement only their own, they dress in ridiculous clothing and wear impracical hair styles. By doing this they prove their week-mindedness. They have fallen directly in with the crowd.
Students also believe that, because of the fact that they support different social issues than their parents, they are thinking for themselves. Very rarely is this correct. Usually what has happened is that they listen to a professor's political rambling. They believe that because he has a PhD, their biology professory must be the image of wisdom, which is, of course, complete stupidity. What the professor did have is the time and money to get a PhD.
So, to my fellow students out there, I challenge you to truely think for yourselves. Do not blindly accept all that those who have power over you tell you. Research issues for yourself before making a stand.

Been a while

2005-03-15T22:07:00.001-05:00

Wow. It's been a little while since I've published anything. Umm.... I have nothing. I guess you just wasted your time coming to this site. For five dollars, I'll pretend that I'm sorry.

Good in the World

2005-02-28T22:30:00.000-05:00

I have been looking over a lot of my old blog posts, and realize that I have not focused much on the good things that have been put into this world of ours. We cannot spend all of our time focusing on chipmunks, diabolical little buggers that they are. There are a large number of good animals out there. Take, for example, the otter. These wonderful animals spend their lives doing nothing but playing and eating sea urchins. It is like they exist purely to amuse and protect us humans. Were it not for the otter, sea urchins could very well take over the world and poke us all with those dratted little spines. Another truely great animal is the penguin. What in the world could possibly be cooler than a bird that looks like its wearing a suit? And in the antarctic no less! Awesome. Truely awesome. Perhaps we could breed penguins to be protectors of humanity just like the otter. They could be the James Bonds of the animal world, only they would be ridding the world of true evils, like men in thongs, instead of getting rid of trivial things like terrorists with doomsday weapons. Anyway, penguins and otters are awesome.

Movies

2005-02-22T21:25:00.000-05:00

Movies, as a general rule, are a good way to spend time. Not all movies, however, are good. Some of them suck. If people just knew how to make a good movie, movies would be better. There are three things than can make a movie good: comedy, action, and story. Because most people in Hollywood are dumber than my shoe, these can rarely be combined successfully. When two or more are, however, the movie can be very very good. A good example of this would be Gladiator. If you do not like that movie, you must be deficient, and should be seen by a psychologist as soon as possible. More than likely, they will decide that there is no hope for you, and shut you in a nuthouse for the rest of your life. Two other good movies (in the comedy genre this time) are Napoleon Dynamite and Monte Python and the Holy Grail. They are good movies becaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhh.....

Fate vs Free Will

2005-02-04T18:32:00.000-05:00

There arn't many issues that have been more discussed by human beings than the idea of fate vs. free will. Do we, as people, really have the ability to think for ourselves, or are we completely controlled by some higher being? The belief that I hold is made up of a bit of both. I believe that God has a plan regarding the world and each person within it. He knows exactly where he wants our lives to go, and he will do what it takes to get us there. I believe, however, that God has given each one of us the option of going against his will. We have been given the option of trying to make our way through our lives.
I was brought up in a Christian home, and until I was eleven, I was a very strong Christian. At this point, I began to try to go through my life without God's help and direction. This lasted until I was seventeen. During that entire time, I was hit with massive bouts of depression. I made decision after decision that caused me to endanger myself and those around me. I hurt my friends, my family, and myself. Evenually, I felt that I could not go on anymore. I remembered what my childhood was like, and wondered what had happened to me. Quickly I realized that the difference beteen the way I had been and the way I was was God. I no longer asked for his help or guidence. I decided to try to follow him again. I am not by any means perfect, but I definutly feel far better than I did a few years ago.
Following God is the best way to get through life. If you have any questions about what I have said, feel free to IM me (my screen-name is in my profile) or email me at cristnogion@netscape.net. God wants to guide you to, and you will not regret letting him.

Tight Pants

2005-01-25T11:03:00.000-05:00

Deep down, we all realize that it is true. Tight pants are a result of an alien plot to take over the world. These pants are the most uncomfortable things on the face of the earth, which means that they cannot have been designed by humans. Causing people to live in discomfort will slowly destroy the desire of the free people of the planet earth to rule themselves. Aliens will then come to our planet and encounter very little resistance. We will then become pawns in their war against the loose pants.
We, as free people of planet earth, must resist the rule of the tight-pants aliens. We must not wear tight pants ever, despite how cool they might look. Better yet, do not wear pants at all. Wear kilts or robes.

My Blog

2005-01-07T13:20:00.000-05:00

We need to straighten a few things out. I can put whatever the heck I want on my blog. If you find it boring, dont read it. If you rely on my blog for amusement you are in serious need of a life. Find something else to amuse you. If I want to put something with "substance" on the blog, I will. If I want to wait three weeks in between posts, I will wait three weeks between posts. It is MY blog. Not your blog.

A bit of a quiz

2005-01-06T12:10:00.000-05:00

I found this on a friend's blog, and havn't done anything on the blog for a while, so I figured I'd do it...

Have You Ever...

01. Kissed your cousin: no
02. Run away: no
03. Pictured your crush naked: I don't have one at the moment
04. Actually seen your crush naked: see above
05. Broken someone's heart: I highly doubt it
07. Been in love: not really
08. Cried when someone died: yes
09. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yeah
10. Broken a bone: no
11. Drank alcohol: I've sipped a few things, but it all tasted really bad
12. Lied: yep

Which Is Better...

13. COKE OR PEPSI: Pepsi
15. GIRLS OR GUYS: Are we talking about which is better for a mate, or just all around better?
16. FLOWERS OR CANDY: Candy (I guess)
17. SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN: I tend to be scruffy
18. QUIET OR LOUD: Depends on the situation
19. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: Really don't give a damn
20. BITCHY OR SLUTTY: They're usually one-and-the-same
21. TALL OR SHORT: either
22. PANTS OR SHORTS: pants are evil!!!

With The Opposite Sex...

23. WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: Face
24. LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: never have
25. WORST QUESTION TO ASK: questions should be avoided at all costs

The Last Time...

26. SHOWERED: This morning
27. HOOKED UP: never
28. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX: if we're talking about a date, never, if we're talking about hanging out with friends, the thursday before winter break

What Is...

29. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: don't have one
30. PERSON YOU HATE MOST: to be honest, I don't truely hate anybody
31. THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY: I woke up (oh wait, that was the best thing that happened to the world today)

Favorites

32. COLOR: blue
33. MOVIE: Gladiator
34. BOOK: The Return of the King
36. JUICE: red grape
37. CAR: Honda CR-V
38. ICE CREAM: Panda Paws
39. HOLIDAY: Christmas
40. SEASON: fall
41. BREAKFAST FOOD: pancakes (if they're made right)

Best...

43. COLOGNE: axe
44. PERFUME: being around people with perfume gives me headaches
45. KISS: never have
46. ROMANTIC MEMORY: none
47. MOST RECENT ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU: go to sleep

Have You...

48. Fallen for your best friend?: my best friends are all guys, so I have to say no
49. Kissed JUST a friend? well, I suppose if you want to be technical...
50. Been rejected?: yep (pretty funny now that I look back on it)
51. Been in love?: nope
52. Been in lust?: I'm ashamed to say yes
53: Used someone?: no
54. Been used?: I don't think so
55. Cheated on someone?: no
56. Been cheated on?: no
57. Been kissed?: no
58. Done something you regret?: hell ya

Who Was The Last Person...

59. You touched?: a family member ( I don't remember which)
60. You talked to?: my dad
61. You hugged?: my dad
62. You instant messaged? Geoff
63. You kissed?: well, If you want to be technical about it...
65. You yelled at?: my brother I think
66. You laughed with?: my brother
67. Who broke your heart?: nobody
68. Who told you they loved you?: my family members

Do You...

69. Color your hair? nope
70. Have tattoos? nope
71. Have piercings? I'm a little phobic of needles
72. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both?: no
73. Own a webcam? no
74. Own a thong? thongs on guys are just wrong (especially when worn by us ugly guys)
75. Ever get off the damn computer? yeah, but not enough

Have You / Do You / Are You...

79. Stolen anything? yes, then I returned them
80. Smoke? yuck
81. Schizophrenic? we don't have anything wrong with us
82. Obsessive? sometimes
83. Compulsive? sometimes
84. Obsessive compulsive? only occasionally
85. Panic? rarely
86. Anxious? no
87. Depressed? usually, no
88. Suicidal? I've thought about it from time to time, but suicide is the wimp's way out
89. Obsessed with hate? I used to be
90. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? only sometimes
91. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? that's sorta wierd
92. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? I don't know
93. Can you do anything freakish with your body? not really
94. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? eyes
95. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? only if there wern't a more qualified, and moral, man running
96. Would you marry for money? no
97. Have you had braces? yep
98. Do you like hairy backs? no
99. When was the last time you gave head? never (thats really really gross)
100. Could you live without a computer? yeah
101. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc.? AIM
102. If so, how many people are on your list(s)? 58
103. If you could live in any past, where? in ancient Rome
104. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: off
105. What is your favorite fruit?: grapes
106. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: 12 grain
107. What is your favorite place to visit?: Maine was pretty cool
108. What is the last movie you saw?: King Arthur
109. Do you kiss on the first date?: havn't had the chance to find out
110. Are you photogenic?: nope
111. Do you dream in color or black and white?: color
112. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: HECK NO!!!
113. Is it chipped or fresh?: see above
114. Do you have any dimples?: ....
115. Do you remember being born?: no
116. Why do you take surveys?: I have no life
117. Do you drink alcohol? It tastes really bad and turns you into an idiot
118. Did you like or do you like high school?: good riddence to General McLane
119. What is the best accent? british
120. Who do you want to kiss?: if I ever have one, my future wife
121. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: sunset (who gets up to see sunrises?)
122. Do you want to live to be 100?: sure, why not?
123. Is a flat stomach important to you?: not really
124. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: no
125. Are you loyal?: Probably more than I should be, and a LOT more than I let on
126. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: yeah, but I have no problem with trying to change them to mine
127. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: off
128. Do you have frequent nightmares: not really
129. Do you like your nose?: its a good thing to have
131. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real? about 7 or 8 i think
132. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: i currently don't have a closet
133. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety?: 2 pairs
134. Do you write poetry?: only sometimes
135. Do you snore?: No idea
136. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: front and sides
137. dog/cat? dog
138. Do you lick stamps?: when I need to
139. Do you use an electric can opener?: those things are annoying
140. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?: No, but I would like to (if anybody could hook me up, that would be really cool)
141. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: emotional
142. Favorite TV show?: M*A*S*H
143. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?: yeah
44. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: Piano
145. Are you a sex addict? never had it
146. Do you know someone who has cancer?: yeah
147. Do you like to argue?: I tease-argue
148. Do you hunt?: small game
149. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants? either
150. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: a good zoo
151. Do you have a middle name? Matthew
152. Are you basically a happy person?: usually
153. Are you tired?: I'm starting to get tired
154. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: no
155. Have you ever met anyone off the internet? I've never met anybody on the internet
156. How many phones do you have in your house?: 1
157. How long is your hair?: getting longer all the time (near early Beatles length now)
158. Do you get along with your parents?: usually
159. What color of eyes do you prefer?: anything but red or yellow

The Last Time I...

221. Smiled?: this evening
222. Laughed? same
223. Cried?: about a month ago
224. Bought something?: yesterday
225. Danced?: a few monthes ago
226. Was sarcastic?: I tend to be all the time
227. Kissed someone?: technically, a few weeks before Christmas
228. Talked to an ex?: dont have one
230. Do you own any plaid clothing?: plaid's great
231. Do you own Converse shoes?: no
232. Do you own Saucony shoes?: no
233. Do you own old school Nikes?: nope
234. Do you wear tight pants?: tight pants are of the devil
235. Is there more than one zipper in your pants?: nope

In The Last Day Have You...

236. Worn a skirt: I AM A GUY!!!
237. Been mean: I hope not
238. Been sarcastic: I almost always am
239. Met someone new: nope
240. Missed someone: nah
241. Hugged someone: nope
242. Fought with your parents: no
243. Wished upon a star: no
244. Laughed until you cried: yep (gotta love the Three Stooges)
245. Played Truth or Dare: no
246. Watched a sunrise/sunset: no
247. Went to the beach at night: way too cold
248. Spent quality time alone: nope
249. Read a book for fun: yep
250. Are you lonely: not really
251. Are you wearing your pajamas?: No
252. Are you talking to someone online: not at the moment
255. Boxers or Briefs: boxers, if anything ;-)

2004-12-15T20:07:00.000-05:00

Bwahahahahahaha!!!!! Bwahahahahahahaha!!!!! Bwahahahahahahaha!!!!! Mwahahahahahahaha!!!!

The Evils Which Have America

2004-12-08T08:40:00.000-05:00

There are powerful evil forces at work in the United States. At least four of them, in fact. The greatest of these evils, as mentioned earlier, happens to be the chipmunk. This vile little creature looks all cute and lovable in the outside, but on the inside, he's just a rat. The second place for evil goes to the sheep. Anything that you can get from a sheep can be gotten, with better quality, from a goat. Also, I'm pretty sure that their stupidity is spreading to the American people. A very diabolical form of evil that threatens to tear America apart is the man who wears a thong. Honestly people, do I have to go in any level of depth on this one? I didn't think so. The fourth great evil has been discussed in an earlier post. Pants must be eliminated.
Now that you know where the evils are, we must work to destroy them.

Clothing

2004-11-29T21:48:00.000-05:00

Human beings were not made to wear clothes. We were made to walk around naked in gardens naming animals and eating fruit. Clothing is unnatural and uncomfortable. The worst articles of clothing are pants. They should be eliminated altogether. I am not saying that we should all walk around in the nude. Climates are different than they were in the Garden of Eden, and it would be impractical to be naked. What we should do however is change our fashions to make them more natural. We should all wear robes.

Christianity

2004-11-22T01:12:00.000-05:00

It's really cool the ways that God can work. Even when I am not expecting it, he manages to find some way to speak to me. For example, one of my friends misread a Bible verse and sent it to me. I looked it up, read it in context, and it hit me hard (James 3:9, if you want to take a look). Ouch. Another thing that I thought was really cool was how God used me this past week. I did something for a friend, not having a clue why I did it. The next day, I found out it was very appreciated by that person, and exactly what they needed. Can we say "God?"
For those of you who read my blog and are not Christians, I cannot begin to describe the feeling that comes with knowing that you are loved by God, and the joy that comes from doing what he wants you to do.
I am not saying that I am perfect. I deal with sins ranging from "little white lies" to lust to hatred. I know that God is on my side, and will always stand by me.

Chipmunks

2004-11-15T20:12:00.000-05:00

Chipmunks are vulger little critters.

Humanity is dying

2004-11-10T15:02:00.000-05:00

During the Middle Ages, there was an ideal which existed in this world. It was known as Chivalry. It was a code which stated that men are to be both strong and sensitive. It is an ideal which is dead in the world today. Men, as a whole, have degenerated into a mass of animals who are only concerned with sex. Our society has rid itself of the emotional half of chivalry. We men have allowed ourselves to be concerned with physical strength only. This is a trait which has been associated, until recently, only with animals. Only since the popularization of the idea that humans are just apes, has animalistic behavior become acceptable for humans. My fellow men, we are not animals! We are Men. Let us act like it once again.
While much of the blame for the degeneration of men must be placed on us men, women can share in the blame as well. Until recently, most women expected that they would have relationships with other humans, not animals. Now, only a minority of women even voice their wish for a gentleman. They have lowered their standards, which gives men no reason to act like more than animals. Women: HAVE SOME STANDARDS!!! Seek the best of what God has to offer.
Don't settle for the world's best. Do not allow me to convey the idea that all men have always been gentleman. There have been animal-men all throughout history. The difference is that now they are accepted. This must end!

BUSH WON!!!

2004-11-03T22:30:00.000-05:00

Well, folks, the liberal plans to increase their showing by registering a ton of people to vote have completely backfired. Bush has overwhelmingly beaten Kerry, not just in the electorial college, but also in it popular vote. While it makes me happy, it makes my prof's very upset. I was actually quite amused. They made snide remarks that were all pathetic at best. I am being educated by a bunch of leftover hippies.
Anyway, who cares at the moment. BUSH WON!!!!

VOTE!!!!!!!!

2004-11-02T11:08:00.000-05:00

Ok people, in case you have not already done so, I must tell you to get out and vote. This is your chance to makes sure that your voice gets heard. Of course, I hope and pray that you are smart enough to vote for Bush, but this is not the issue of this post. If you have the ability to vote, and do not vote, you losing your chance to make your voice heard. If you do not vote, I do not want to hear you complaining about the outcome.
Go vote for somebody! Even if you are uninformed enought that you feel that you must vote for a liberal, VOTE!!!
Another thing I must emphasize (especially to democrats): do not hesitate to vote outside of your party. I even voted for a couple of democrats, though certainly not for president.
VOTE!!!!

Liberal Success

2004-10-28T15:44:00.000-04:00

Let's face it people, liberals are successful at making people notice them. This is a disadvantage to conservatives everywhere. We simply lack the ability to effectively get our points across. The good news is that this is a problem which can be fixed with a relative amount of ease. If you havn't noticed, liberals have no qualms about fighting dirty. They will even stoop to such lows as *spit* Fahrenheit 9/11. Most conservatives are too willing to just sit back and take this crap. They want to try and compromise and appeal to as many people as possible. They are always willing to fight their political wars on the defending side. We conservatives must be willing to take the offensive position. We must say things to shake people up, not only to defend ourselves, but also to hurt the liberal enemy. I am not saying that all conservitives are too reactionary, there are some that are great. The problem occurs with those who do not wish to fight for what is right and good. My fellow conservatives, stand up and fight!

Fahrenheit 9/11

2004-10-25T21:59:00.000-04:00

Well, folks I done it. I've gone and seen Fahrenheit 9/11. Unfortunately, my religious beliefs do not allow me to adequetly describe it. To say that it is a hard to follow pile of crap is an extreme understatement. What the movie has succeded in doing is strengthening my hatred of liberal point of views and tactics. They will believe any crap that is thrown at them, as long as it goes against traditional views, and they will use the lowest tactics to get their views across. They are more than willing to lie blatently, and people are stupid enough to believe them. Liberals lack the willingness to become informed. They completely lack the ability to see all sides of the issues.
Grrrrrr....
I guess I just lack the ability to express my full opinions on the liberals. They are all either twisted or stupid.

Privileges vs. Rights

2004-10-19T21:33:00.000-04:00

Our country, in case you have been deaf and blind, has some pretty major problems. At the root of many of these problems is the concept of rights. Many people in this world believe that humans have rights. This is not true. Rights cannot be given or taken away. All one needs to do is look around and they can see that many people's "rights" can be taken away by any number of things, ranging from a court order based on a past violations to a "brutal" dictator's "sadistic" whims. As an example of rights in our own nation, we have to look no further than how we treat life. Almost anyone will agree that an innocent baby has the right to live. In actuality, in our culture, the baby does not have the right to live. They must gain the privilege to live by being born. When looked at closely, we do not have any rights in this world. We have privileges, and privileges can be taken away. Our privileges of free speech, free religion, and fair trials were payed for dearly, and many people have forgotten how precious these privileges are.
This all brings me to the issue of gay marriage. If gays marry, it is not because they have the right to do so, it is because they have been given the privilege to do so. They push their disgusting agenda by calling for the "right" to marry, which makes one think that their cause may be noble. They do not have the right to do anything. Do not be fooled into believing their stupidity. You have no moral reason to agree with them. So don't.

Black squirrel, black squirrel

2004-10-11T21:33:00.000-04:00

I saw a very large black squirrel and five grey squirrels today. I wanted to kill them, but I couldn't. Grr.....
On a more serious note, this presidential election crap going on around me has caaused me to put some consideration into my political leanings. I am currently a registered Republican. Recently, I have been noticing something about the Republican party, and it bothers me. They are not nearly conservative enough. What the United States needs is an extraordinarly conservative leader. After looking into the matter, I have decided that the CFPA looks pretty good. I would explain them, but I do not have the time. I will, however provide you with a link to their website.

Meetings

2004-10-10T20:34:00.000-04:00

Anyone who knows me can attest to the fact that I am not an extremely organized person, overall. However, I do prefer a little bit of organization in my life. This evening, I was by a professor that I had a mandatory meeting to go to at eight. I went. Nobody else did, including the person who was supposed to be leading it. When I got back to my room, greatly irritated, I checked every form of communication that I have in order to see if something had changed without my knowledge. No messages whatsoever. I had something else that I greatly would have prefered to be doing this evening. Now I want to kill something.

Help me

2004-10-06T22:23:00.000-04:00

This has been an extremely difficult day. I have experienced attack from almost every direction. As a result I am tired physically, mentally, emotionally, and spititually. Please pray for me.

Wow

2004-09-29T23:12:00.000-04:00

Wow. Today was a very interesting day. Up until about five-thirty in the evening it was extremely stressful. After that I decided to go to a Bible study. I thought that it started at six. It didn't. It started at eight. That was frankly embarrassing. So, I hung out in the library for a while. Then I went to the small group, which was enlightening. After that we all went down to ALF, and that was a lot of fun. All in one day. I am tired. Nos da.

Pity

2004-09-25T13:24:00.000-04:00

Since publishing my last post, I have been doing a bit of thinking. What I have realized is that I do not hate my roommates, I hate what my roommates do to me, and I pity them for what they are doing to themselves. In the name of fun, they are destroying their bodies and minds. Far worse, however, is the fact they are going to be spending eternity in Hell. Pray that I might be able to keep my faith strong and be a positive influence upon them.

RMF

2004-09-22T17:53:00.000-04:00

Good lord, I really do hate some people, namely the friends of my roommates. Every darn night, they come into the apartment drunk and pound on my door and cuss me out. If I were not a Christian, I would kill each and every one of them. As one of my good friends said, if I make it through this semester, I will be able to deal with anything. Oh, well. I guess it happens to the best of us.

Song

2004-09-16T17:44:00.000-04:00

Though I am not a huge fan of contemporary Christian music as a whole, I found this song by Chris Rice to be very relevant to life overall. We all to often spend our time in the safety of our past. We must remember that as long as we know the Lord, there is safety in our future as well.

8th Grade

Take a little trip with me back to junior high

Set the time machine to 1975

We just found out that momma's gonna have another kid

back in the 8th grade



remember the days when life was not so mysterious

follow me down the hall to the cafeteria

where the worst thing i could mess up

was dipping yesterday's corn dog in last week's ketchup

back in the 8th grade



Why does the past always seem safer?

Maybe because at least we know me made it

And why do we worry about the future?

When every day will come just the way the Lord ordained it

You can believe it, just like the 8th grade



Step out into the hall and feel the moment pass

Slam the locker, there's the bell, we're running to class

'Cause Mr. Jackson told us,"Don't be late to geometry again"

We're back in the 8th grade



I drop my books, sit down and mess with my hair

Suzie looks at me and smiles, I'm walking on air

Then I hear my name, I missed the question, I mumble something

The class is laughing, oh i love the 8th grade.

Seize the goodness

2004-09-15T20:08:00.000-04:00

Many people in this world believe that life throws them nothing but bad. This is not in the least bit true. Life throws us a lot of very good things. The problem is, humans are horrible catchers. We must learn how to not only recognize the good in the world, but also how to grab hold of those good things. When we do this, we can keep the good, and perhaps even cause it to grow.

Influence

2004-09-12T21:56:00.000-04:00

I seriously think that I need to transfer to another college very soon. Do not misunderstand me, Clarion is a very good school, and I am starting to enjoy myself here. The problem is that everybody at Clarion likes country music. This liking is contagious. I used to dislike the stuff, but I am starting to enjoy it to some extent. Maybe I'm just becoming a more "well rounded" individual. Whatever is going on, I'm scared.

9-11

2004-09-11T23:26:00.000-04:00

Remember!

Hi!

2004-09-11T14:01:00.000-04:00

Guess what everybody... its time to read another entry in the blog of Joel! Feel that warmth rising up inside you? That's excitement. Or vomit. Better run to the toilet quick, just in case.
Now that you're back, lets get down to buisness. Um... I don't really have anything to say yet today. What sorts of questions have been bothering me today? Lets see here (time passes while Joel thinks). Got it! Why are public toilet seats never complete ovals, while the ones in homes clearly are complete?
Maybe I'll write something "deeper" later. Then again, maybe I won't.

Realization

2004-09-08T19:45:00.000-04:00

First, allow me to explain that I am fully aware that I have already made a post today.
Second, I have realized something, which I'm not sure that everybody knows. I do not hate myself. What I hate is the iron shell which surrounds me and seperates me from the world. Under my shell, I am a person that is funny, loving, caring, and filled with joy (along with other emotions). The shell is the only truely ugly thing on me, and I WILL cast it off.

Argh

2004-09-08T18:45:00.000-04:00

I still can't do it. Despite what my feelings are I can't let them out. It is frustrating. My emotions are building up inside of me to such an extent that I am physically tired by them. I feel love people, but can I tell them? No. The words get as far as my lips, but there they stop. I am left with a confused jumble of emotions. I feel love, hate, joy, and sadness at the same time. I want to let it all out, but how?

Home

2004-09-07T16:23:00.000-04:00

I have been alive for eighteen years. During that time, I have not been home once. I have caught glimpses of home in the places where I have lived or spent time, but I have never yet been home. I have a theory as to why I feel this way. Human beings are not meant to live in the screwed up world that is twenty-first century Earth. We are meant to run around naked in a garden eating fruit and naming animals with our wives (or husbands if you are a female). Whenever we catch a rare and beautiful glimpse of good, we feel slightly at home. Until we die, we cannot be at home.

Ideals

2004-09-06T18:53:00.000-04:00

Ideal. The very word conjures up in the mind images of perfection. Ideals are what we are all searching for. The ideal car, the ideal job, the ideal woman, etc. There is a problem with ideals, however. They are very difficult to obtain. Ideals must all be based off of something, and the only thing that we humans can base things off of are our past experiences. By the time we have realized what the ideal is, it has already passed us by. We must not focus on looking for ideals. What we should be looking for is the good that surrounds us in the now. When we see this good, we must reach out and grab it, making it ours. Then we will not have to waste our time on ideals.

Crash

2004-08-31T22:23:00.000-04:00

Wow. I was really having a great evening up until a few minutes ago. I was going to talk to somebody, but they told me that they were unable to talk at the moment. Ok. That I can understand. Not a terribly difficult concept. So I replied, "I see," to which the person I was talking to responded basically that I didn't have a clue as to what I was talking about. Wake up people! I can understand not being able to talk. I may not understand the situation behind the desire not to talk, but I can understand not wanting to talk. Americans, I have noticed, seem not to be very perceptive people. Not everything said is an insult!

Life's Goodness

2004-08-30T16:17:00.000-04:00

Recently I have come to a realization: Life Is Good. Sure, not everything that happens in life will make a person want to dance for joy, but life is good, but all one needs to do is look around to see the good there is. Children play, friends talk, and the seasons shift. Beauty abounds in our lives, and so does love. Life is good. Life is GREAT.

Happy

2004-08-29T13:39:00.000-04:00

Wow. I actually feel really good today. The odd thing is, I have no idea why. Maybe it was the drunk kid who came to my apartment last night. That gave me a good laugh. Or maybe it was the dream about flying last night. That's the wonderful thing about dreams. While in them, you are only inhibited by your subconscious. If you know how, you can take complete control of your them, and then there are no inhibitions. Great way to make yourself feel better.

Trapped

2004-08-28T16:19:00.000-04:00

I feel as though I am trapped. Trapped inside of a huge, thick, and heavy shell. I have been able to find small holes where I can poke a finger out, but I can never escape. People can get to know a small part of me, but I can never allow myself to fully show. The strength of my emotions is overpowering, but I can not let them out. My love, hate, happiness, and sadness are all trapped inside waving aroung chaotically. I cannot share these feelings. I am surruonded by people, but am ALL ALONE.

Fitting in

2004-08-27T20:54:00.000-04:00

I am now a college student. Great. I hope and pray that I will find some way to fit in here. It's times like this when I would be willing to give my right arm to just be able to easily be able to fit into a group. Will I ever get the chance to do that, or am I doomed to be socially frustrated for life? Are there answers to be found anywhere? Does even the Bible deal with these issues? All questions and no answers.

Welcome

2004-08-26T22:53:00.000-04:00

At this point in time I have nothing to say. My mind isn't wandering yet, and I'm too tired to be confusing or intellegent. Give it time.